Unable to comprehend the differences
between general discontentment
and the present gaping feelings of fear and needing
Aloof compromises may not lend themselves to coherent conclusions
To be lonely in a crowded room
Isolated around seemingly close friends
Content when alone and yet the ever-present lacking void
Is this a life-long quest for an inexplicable source of fulfillment or gratification
Is this truly unhappiness; have I ever been happy?

I remember a time; the past – thousands of kilometers away…
It is here where I am unable to reach
I am disinclined to believe this can change