A slow arduous process… presently, needing some rest…
It is not easy to lie to oneself, subconsciously, if you spend enough time with yourself, the echoes resonate and overpower.
Telling myself to slow down does not seem to help…
I don’t want to slow down.
I can easily say to myself that I should stop running – but I shall never go through with it. What scares me is that I have so expertly suppressed that which I seem to be running from, that I am unable to face it. It does not resonate…

I came across this; it induced some calm:

'Heat cannot be separated from fire, or beauty from The Eternal'
~Dante Alighieri